Eres mi mariposa de amor y dolor

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 15:34:17 GMT

Your a Magical Angel!Out of all the angels, you are
the one most afflicted with magic. You can do
many enchantments as well as sorcery. You cant
do black magic, because even though your not so
"pure" your still an angel. A very
kind and curious one at that. Magical Angels
are always very easy-going with humans, but
intrestingly enough, like to expirement with
them with their spells.

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Sadness

Wed, 26 May 2004 04:25:00 GMT

5/25/04
What the fuck is wrong with me....why the hell am I being so stupid...if you don't know what I'm talking about, don't ask.

Well it's about 12:10 am and Harrison should be here in about 20 minutes. Man I so fucking glad. I need a break from this shit.

I'm talking to one of my good friends that I've known for almost as long as I've been here, Brooklyn. We are now realising our great memories and are sad that this year we didn't get to hang out (damn schedules!!). Least we had a locker by each other, I got to see her there a few times at least. It's sad...

Do I do what I do because I want to just party hard and chill...

or is it because I'm depressed and leaving...

Crazy...

Sun, 23 May 2004 16:27:24 GMT

You are a School Boy Kiss!! you're a deprived
catholic school boy who needs some action...
don't get caught in the locker room!

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Long time no see

Thu, 20 May 2004 03:40:54 GMT

Hola como estas?

Yea i know it's been a while, i was up in missouri. Thursday night was so fucking awesome. Harrison, you rule. Friday night was the IB Banquet. Awesome also, but it makes me sad knowing I'm leaving all these wonderful people :(

Don't really wanna talk about the trip, it's behind me.

Yup exempted from all classes so far, cept for Spanish, i still haven't figured out how i can't get exempt from that class when it's my favourite.

Takin the digital camera to school tommorow to take pics.

Kinda tired from trip so sorry this is short but i need sleep.

Hola mis amigos

Thu, 13 May 2004 02:20:49 GMT

Yea so i'm here. Just got done cooking my dish for my wedding tomorrow (for family dynamics, i'm the best man and i get to walk out with mailys, how cool is that??).
I called my dad back to ask if we can just go to the beach instead of Epcot and this was good because he called about money. Also this speeds up the time i get my iPod (yay!!). He said something about getting it this weekend while in Oregon. I told him to get it online though, so maybe he'll do that.

Oh yea so i took a nap and i missed 2 calls. My dad called back. Appearently his ex in Nebraska died. She was very cool and nice. I almost started crying...and i don't cry very often. Kinda left me depressed but what else is new...

Oh yea i thought i'd write in an entry that i wrote a long time ago in my actual journal (one with paper).
12/26/02(day after christmas)
My mom hates me. No wonder she's been acting wierd. No wonder I didn't get anything[for christmas]. Appearently I'm on her "bad list". now she's mad because I made a soap{my mom used to make soap stuff]. Why do I even try even try. I could drop out of school and they wouldn't care. They even left me all alone. I swear. After marci (not my mom, who is the one with the problems with me) basically yelled at me. I wanted to cry. They told me that they were going to bed. I then turned off the T.V. and went to my room to cry. Whats sad is that they got Lily[mom's friend's daughter who is 4] a present. I'm not against her getting one but the fact my mom would get a child she barely knows a present rather than her own son is pretty sad. Maybe I really am horrible like they say I am. Maybe I should go and kill myself. Slit my wrists and stain the walls with my blood so that they can cry and wash it off. Or I could always stab myself. or slit my throat. I'm sure that wouldn't hurt very much because i'd die instantly. They claim I never work around the house. Who was the person who washed the windows? Why should I do any woek. They never helped when I cleaned around the house. I'm sure they think i'm so lazy when i went to sleep earlier. If they only knew how depressed I am. Oh well. I don't care what they think. I'll put my anger and sadness to good causes

So yea that was a while ago. It's sad, 'cause I remeber being depressed even before that. Wow I guess I've been depressed for the whole time I've lived here (5 years). Ah well not much else.

This is about how i feel right now...it's scary how true these words are to me
Evening Falls - Enya

When the evening falls and the daylight is fading,
from within me calls - could it be I am sleeping?
For a moment I stray, then it holds me completely.
close to home - I cannot say.
close to home feeling so far away.
As I walk the room there before me a shadow
from another world, where no other can follow.
carry me to my own, to where I can cross over...
close to home - I cannot say.
close to home feeling so far away.

Forever searching; never right,
I am lost in oceans of night.
Forever hoping I can find memories.
those memories I left behind.

Even though I leave will I go on believing
that this time is real - am I lost in this feeling?
like a child passing through, never knowing the reason.
I am home - I know the way.
I am home - feeling oh, so far away

Woo hoo

Wed, 12 May 2004 14:26:18 GMT

5/12/04
Hello journal. I'm here in english yet again. I just turned in my Final copy of my paper so I hope I get a good grade *crosses fingers* so yup I'm bored here in English surfing the web. This time I'm actually allowed to though. Okedoke well I can't talk long because class is about to end. Will write when I get home tonight.

Woo...

Wed, 12 May 2004 01:45:58 GMT

5/11/04
Man life sucks...
So yea, today was pretty good. I took my biology exam (the one worth 25% of my grade). I'm worried...um because I finished about the time when everyone was half way done...and I thought it was really easy. So knowing me, I probably failed it and the class :)

Um spanish was crazy because it was our day to do our Restaurante. I was dressed up also, very uncomfortable. It was rather stressful though, we didn't have nearly enough food as we should have. A few people said I looked really cute all dressed up...I think they were being sarcastic :/

Um yea rest I wont go into deep explanation...basically, same old shit everyday.

Took a nap when I got home. My mom is being melodramtic about being sick, when I had the same thing. Her roomate went out to get her soup (earlier i guess she went out to get her coughdrops). I asked my mom why I didn't get this treatment when I was sick with the same thing. She replied with "well I can't take the sudofene(something like that) medicine. Mines going to last a lot longer". I reacted by saying "whatever" and I walked away. I feel rather alone in this house sometimes...which causes me to be slightly depressed. Just so much crap going on. Mom and marci keep yelling at me to start cleaning my room. Their threats are becoming more and more. I guess I'll start tomorrow...

Oh yea, yesterday, I went to go get what marci made for dinner. She said that she didn't make enough for everybody (on purpose). Needless to say I was a little upset...

Depressing...I feel like no one really cares...the only person it feels like actually cares is Desi. I know my other friends care, but I only have school relations with them. Living out here in Geneva has kept me isolated from many people and friends I could if lets say I lived near other people. Maybe living in Ireland will help. I'll most likely end up either reading or hanging out over at the local mall (20 minutes away by foot). I guess we'll find out wont we...

It reminds me of the Maroon 5 song~~
Is there anyone out there, 'cause it's getting harder and harder breath

From Chicago, cell block tango:
Then I fired two warning shots....into his head!

I made him his drink as usual...you know some guys just can't handle their arsenic!

He ran into my knife....he ran into my knife 10 times!

You could say we broke up because of artisic differences...he saw himself as alive...and I saw him as dead!

Tilling my own grave to keep me level
Jam another dragon down the hole
Digging to the rhythm and the echo of a solitary siren
One that pushes me along and leaves me so
Pale angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear a word you say
He promised I would find a little solace
And some piece of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so

Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless
over you

Woo wee

Tue, 11 May 2004 23:33:51 GMT

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Haha

Mon, 10 May 2004 23:00:41 GMT

haha this is great...totally stupid quiz...but who cares...it was great anyway...

Pretty Good Day (so far)

Mon, 10 May 2004 14:35:07 GMT

5/10/04
Hey my journal. I'm in english class right now working *cough* on the laptop. Today has been pretty good so far (despite the fact that I know the date of my great exodus...). Biology was boring as usual. We had "independent study" where I sat and read the science world magazine that she had out. Unfortunatly I have a 9 weeks exam in that class tomorrow that is worth 25% of my grade. Crazy, right? i have a 97% in the class so I should be fine if I get a B on the test. What sucks is that I can pass everything up until that point and absolutely bomb the test and fail the class...very reasurring let me tell you. Math was about as boring, we're review how to "manipulate" exponets and radicals. Yea it's easy but I always forget how to do it right. The radicals are idiotically easy and I didn't even do them (she said we could skip ones we didn't think we need to work on, that happened to be both worksheets...). Spanish was a blast, mainly for the fact we're doing our spanish projects. We had the sports bar present today so I'm pretty full. We had subs and chicken wings along with Root Beer in a glass. Bad part was that Hussan asked me today if I was gay, and of course I'm not going to lie about it. He's now mortified, but I don't really care...I never liked Hussan anyway...

Ah and now wonderful english. I am happy. I may pass this class with an A afterall. She returned our papers and she said "now I went through and made suggestions, so if you modify the paper to my likings that I wrote, you should get an A". When she passed my paper back to me I was extactic. I got full credit on it (sure the paper has quite a few errors, but 100% is good meaning I'll also get a 100% on the final paper). Which leads to me here, on the laptop, supposed to be working on this paper. But here's the catch, I worked on my paper at home, so my saved file is at home, meaning I can't work on it. I think I'll work on it at home though, because I really have no homework other then studying for Biology and Math. I better not have history homework, allthough he did say something about a project that'll last all week.

I'll be missing 2 days next week, monday and tuesday. I'll be up in Missouri with my grandma. I hate the drive up there, it's an 19 hour drive. But I think it'll be interesting, I mean, Barry will be with us. I'm going to consider this bonding time between us, knowing I've never met him before. Hopefully the rest of today goes well. I'm drowsy from the food I just ate though so I hope I'm not too tired in history.

P.S. it is currently 3:33 pm in Ireland...crazy...because it's only 10:33 am here.

Ah, drawing to a closure

Mon, 10 May 2004 02:27:23 GMT

Ah yes, i was at my dad's all weekend. I enjoyed it for the mere fact i got to watch a few movies i wanted to see. I saw both Kill Bill's. Very good. Rather gory, but very good. I also watched Chicago, it's one of my favorite movies now. yea but other then that it was the same old shit i put up when i visit my dad. I talked to my mom and it seems that i'll be leaving the 4th of July, about 2 months ways. Oh how this date draws ever so closer.

Needless to say, i'm becoming slightly depressed...

As long as I keep my mask on though, all is well and I can continue to Mascarade as a happy person.

Here's a poem i wrote a while ago

As i walk down this hallway
I stare at the eternal darkness before me
Behind me, all around
This lures me
I am lost
I cannot free myself
There is no use in trying
My attempts are worthless
I will fall further and further
Until i am nothing
And all that i lived for
Means nothing
And I seize to exist

Good bye...

School sucks arse

Wed, 05 May 2004 23:15:36 GMT

These are the places where I can feel torn from my body
My flesh, it peels during this ride we can cut upwhat we like
I’m about to break
Waiting alone, I cannot resist
Feeling this hate, I have never missed
Please, someone, give me a reason to rip off my face
Blood is a pouring

Yea school sucks, large sum of homework, my head hurts, and i'm tired, Mix well and you get a nice helping of what we like to call IB

Creepy...

Wed, 05 May 2004 18:27:12 GMT

5/5/04
After days of being quite focused on an emotional issue, you'll be ready to let it go and have some fun. Treat yourself to dinner out with a friend, and allow yourself to laugh -- a lot.

How did it know that i may be going out....creepy horoscopes....

Hola

Tue, 04 May 2004 14:35:16 GMT

5/4/04
Hello yet my oh so dear journal of mine. I am yet again, in my english class working with that laptops. I think they're nifty. They're so fun and portable. I wish i had one. These are also cool because they're hooked up to the school system so it has internet. Not just any internet, high speed, which is even better. So um yea, i'm supposed to be writing my paper, but guess what, i'm not!!!! woo hooo....livin on the edge o.O

Yea i talked to Mrs. Meahl and i'm like "PLEASE MRS.MEAHL DON'T MAKE ME TURN IN IT ALL TODAY!!! IT WONT BE READY!!! I MISSED A DAY BECAUSE I WAS SICK AND NOW I"M SO BEHIND!!!"

Well that wasn't necesary because she was going to tell the class that if they're not done with it today that they can turn it into her thursday or friday (she wont be here tommorow). So booo yah. I think i'm going to stay after school though, or get somebody's source cards because i sourced a few of them wrong ;_;) But i dunno, i could today maybe...but i don't want to on such short notice, and i can't tommorow because they close the library for teacher meetings. I don't want to thursday because i want to turn it in by then. Ah well it'll all work out...least it better.

So yup here i am...bored as hell...well not really it's just there isn't too much to do, but i wouldn't say i'm "bored". I'm going to get lunch today. I've come to the realisation that if i'm going to get better i'm going to have to start eating. My next step will be...eating healthy. I told my mom that we need healthy food in the house so we wouldn't be such unhealthy people. I think she took my hint because she started going on about how she was going to get some food today and blah blah blah. Watch her not, she has a lovely way of doing that.

Um i dunno what else to write. I think i'm going to surf the net a little, yea i know i'm so bad...lol i feel bad too

Funnyness

Tue, 04 May 2004 02:54:07 GMT

I don't really feel like doing a formal update. I'll merely mention that i apologized to the chapter tonight, which a load off my chest.

Quotes from a funny movie!!

Would you excuse me? I cut my foot before and my shoe is filling up with blood.

Yeah, for me though, it's like I've given birth to my own baby girl, you know? Only she's like a big giant girl who smokes and says shit a lot.

This dress exacerbates the genetic betrayel that is my legacy

Mono was like the best diet ever.

1. So, Mi-chelle! What are you up to?
2. Actually I invented a special kind of glue.
1. Oh really? Well then I'm sure you wouldn't mind giving us a detailed account of how exactly you concocted this miracle glue, would you?
2. No. Um, well, ordinarily when you make glue first you need to thermoset your resin and then after it cools you have to mix in a Poxide which is really just a fancy schmancy name for any simple oxyginated adhesive, right? And then I thought maybe, just maybe, you could raise the viscosity by adding a complex glucose derivative during the emulsification process and it turns out I was right.

I hope your babies look like monkeys!

ok i'm done

School...papers...blah

Mon, 03 May 2004 14:53:08 GMT

Yo people i'm at school right now. Still feeling a little sick, and my cough is still there also. The day has gone pretty good so far and now i'm in english working on my paper. I emailed it to myself so i can work on it more tonight though because our second rough draft is due tommorow. since i never turned in my first one (i wasn't here, damn cold) I'm supposed to be working on it now. I only have about 2 and a half pages ;_; As you can see, my mind wonders...i'll just turn in what i have and see what happens lol. She's just grading it on how we did it, not if we did it all. So yup, as long as it's not too bad...(watch it be horrible and i get an F) i may still survive this paper. I'm kinda hungry, this class is right before lunch. Hopefull miriam will give me her food or something.

Ah well, i better get back to work.

Adios

Mon, 03 May 2004 00:55:55 GMT

The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before

URHG!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sun, 02 May 2004 16:26:55 GMT

5/2/04
DAMNIT I AM STILL SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

urgh...it makes me want to cry. I was awoken last night around 2:30am and it was some guy off the internet that i barely now (thats what i get for leaving my number on my away message saying "call me"). Needless to say, this is when i realized i was sicker then i was the last few days. I no longer have the throat problem (thank god) but now it's gone into my chest and i'm actually sick sick. So this leads me to the next point...MEDICINE WILL WORK NOW!! Since it's not my throat, medicine can now be used to help. But heres the catch, to USE medicine, you must HAVE this medicine. Thanks to my mom, i have nothing to take. This makes me mad. But anyway, i'm about to die from exhaustion (it's only noon, i've been up for 2 hours).

Waaah i feel like shit!

Oh yea look at this

You've got quite a week ahead of you, so you might want to take it easy tonight. Yes, that means go home early, which isn't what you probably had in mind -- but by Tuesday, you'll be glad you rested up

Damnit and i was gonna go out with Harrison tonight maybe...and i have tons of work to make up, man this sucks big balls

I'm still sick

Sun, 02 May 2004 07:19:08 GMT

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Say what??	"You know what your problem is?-Your Stupid!"

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blinkshuh?

Sat, 01 May 2004 13:33:11 GMT

5/1/04
Woo hoo first day of may...shit...less days till i move.

Um so yea, last night was pretty crazy. So we got there about 40 mins late and when they open the door the first person i see in the background in sammy. So i was looking at him, then i notice that nicki is screaming at me in front as she latched on and refused to let go of my waist. So yea, in the beginning i was kinda having an anxiety attack, i was freaking. I kept think "omg there are so many people". I felt like i was about to shake, but then Jenny and I went on a walk. We all played spin the bottle and i don't think once i got sammy, so at the end we kissed without the bottle. Chris and Tyler(some other gay guy chris invited him, i didn't know him) went off, and who knows what happened with them*cough*. So everyone at his party just kinda hung out. He popped out of no where and we all migrated to the bed. Sammy and i were on the bottom bunk along with Jenny and some other nice person that i appearently met at chris' homecoming. Chris and tyler were on the floor...doing um..."naughty things"? lol. Now that i think about it, i'm glad he's found someone else, though it kinda sucked cause we were at a party honoring him, and we had to watch him make out. Me and sammy were like "nu uh, lets make out!" so yea that was pretty fun. Yea, once he left tho, i just felt i dunno, if anything depressed. Chris and Tyler got on the bottom bunk, which is a view everyone can see from ever where in the room, thanks to a nice mirror. It was like Cinnemax. Yea we left them be. Then like everyone left, even tho the party still had an hour, and i told me mom 1 so here me and jenny are, trying to watch X-men with sounds a two peoples lips smacking lol. At the time tho i was depressed though, about the whole moving, leaving all my friends, issues with guys, et cetera. I was so glad when my mom showed up, i just wanted to go home and sleep, and i'm sure chris was glad she came also, if u know what i mean :)

So yea, today is saturday, my mom is about to drop off jenny. I'm gonna be around the house all day, maybe i'll go see terra. Herrison and i are probably gonna go out tonight and do something. He mentioned food, so i dunno.

Ah well i'm tired off writing, lata

Bah goes the isaac...BAH!

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 16:54:10 GMT

4/30/04
Blah, still sick. I was doing homework last night and my mom got home from shopping. I asked her if she got any medicine, and she replied by saying "they didn't have what i wanted to give you". Well so yea, i'm like "but i'm dying, HELP ME!!!" and she's like "here let me feel u face *feels face* wow, well ur not going to school tommorow, ur running a fever, go to sleep"

Me: But i'm doing homework though...
Mom: well it doesn't matter if ur not going to school does it?

So yea, i'm here, all alone in my house, while everyone is at school. My throat still hurts like a bitch and my mom says it's something like strept throat. I'm like "u know u have to take really strong anti biotics to get rid of it". She said she did. So yea, i doubt she'll get me any medicine so i have to fight this one on my own.

I called Harrison last night, we're gonna go out to eat or something on saturday, i can't wait :dances: i better not be sick, or i'll hurt someone.

Hey at least my mom caught my cold. Now she feels the pain i was in. I'm like "it's not the cold part i don't like mom, it's my throat, IT FUCKING HURTS!" I think she's sick, but without the throat part, cause i got sick from marci, and i gave it to my mom i guess. She also said it may just be sore. I replied "this isn't sore, it's someone stabbing my throat...and if it's sore, get my my fucking caugh medicine". Seriously, i'm over this whole throat thing, if it doesn't go away, i dunno what i'm gonna do. It hurts so much it brings tears to even open my mouth wide, so yawning is out of the question.

Enough of my rambling of sickness. I really think i could've gone to school (sure my throat hurts like a bitch, but as long as i don't A) Eat B)Drink C)Swallow i'm pretty fine, yesterday though i was sick also) but sadly my mom made me stay home. Tonight i'm going to chris' party with jenny. It better be fun, if not i'll just be anti social with jenny. But i doubt i wont have any fun, because i mean, sammy is gonna be there, and u all know how that goes. Then jenny is spending the night at my house. Rock on man. wow i think thats a phrase jenny uses...creepy

From my horoscope (i’m seriously so bored today)
There really are individuals out there who want to have a job, a life of their own and a relationship. Honestly. You stand a very good chance of spending time with one of them tonight.
----Hmm i think they’re talking about u jenny ;)

My one desire, all I aspire
Is in your eyes forever to live
Traveled all over the seven oceans
There is nothing that I wouldn't give
Came from Bahrein, got to Beruit
Looking for someone comparing to you
Tearing down windows and doors
And I could not find eyes like yours

Sick...damnit!

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 20:30:57 GMT

4/29/04
Sorry i haven't updated in a while, just been pretty crazy, tired, then i got sick yesterday...u know how it goes.

Yea, well i didn't go to school today. I woke up at 5 and asked my mom if i had to go to school since i'm sick. She said if i wasn't feeling well then i didn't. So i did the logical thing any teenager would do, not go to school. What sux, it's not like i'm skipping, i'm actually sick. I was supposed to go to some demolay ritual practice, but haha, i wasn't gonna take a 2 hour ride there and 2 hours back, not get my hair cut, and sick.

So yea, i got my hair cut, but it's very short. Um someone told desi's grandma about the circus, well there goes us hanging out together. so now tommorow i guess im picking up jenny and going to chris's b day party. i'm only going for the people, chris sent me the music, and i can't say it's the best in my opinion, but hey it's his party.

Uh so yea, my mom said i had to start going through my room for the move. I guess its hard to believe that in less then 3 months i'll be living in ireland...wow. I think i'm gonna like it up there, but i'm gonna miss all my friends very much. Ah well i'm not feeling good so i'm gonna jet. Later cuhs

Woo hoo 7th level of hell!!

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 21:56:39 GMT

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Moderate

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Level 7

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Guarded by the Minotaur, who snarls in fury, and encircled within the river Phlegethon, filled with boiling blood, is the Seventh Level of Hell. The violent, the assasins, the tyrants, and the war-mongers lament their pitiless mischiefs in the river, while centaurs armed with bows and arrows shoot those who try to escape their punishment. The stench here is overpowering. This level is also home to the wood of the suicides- stunted and gnarled trees with twisting branches and poisoned fruit. At the time of final judgement, their bodies will hang from their branches. In those branches the Harpies, foul birdlike creatures with human faces, make their nests. Beyond the wood is scorching sand where those who committed violence against God and nature are showered with flakes of fire that rain down against their naked bodies. Blasphemers and sodomites writhe in pain, their tongues more loosed to lamentation, and out of their eyes gushes forth their woe. Usurers, who followed neither nature nor art, also share company in the Seventh Level

go me!!!

Happy...yet sad

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 16:15:30 GMT

4/24/04

Hello folks, well we went to IOA as planned with sammy. It was pretty fun. It was pretty fun. Jimmy Nuetron ride was awesome, so silly but awesome. Stayed at desi's, talked to people online, pretty fun.

But alas, i'm depressed. Yesterday while at ioa i saw someone that would look like one of my friends grown up a litte, and it made me think..."wow, i wont be able to grow up with my friends...". Needless to say, i was sad for about 3 mins, but the we got on jaws. Also, the whole issue of staying single because i'm moving is bothering me. I hate this, i feel like i'll be alone forever. I mean, who the hell lives in Ireland, who is also gay. I believe those are the reasons i'm sad, but i dunno, it just doesn't feel like those are the reasons of my depression...but if it's not that, what is it then? Bah...

Ay, mariposa de amor, mi mariposa de amor
Ya no regreso contigo
Ay, mariposa de amor, mi mariposa de amor
Nunca jamás junto a ti
Vuela amor, vuela dolor
Que tengas suerte en tu vida
Ay, ay, ay, ay, ay dolor
Yo te lloré todo un río
Ay, ay, ay, ay, ay amor
Tú te me vas a volar

Hola

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 02:15:01 GMT

4/23/04
Hey everyone. Tonights a bit crazy. As many of u know me and desi are going to IOA tommorow, an event that has been in the process of being planned for quite some time now. Well, sammy is supposed to be going, but him getting there is the hard part. Desi has to call me to find out if her grandparents can pick him up so they can talk to his mom, then i have to call him. The thing is, i dunno how late i can call. I told him i wont be calling till around 10:30 pm or 11 and he said it's fine, but i still feel bad. So yea, and i learned that Nisee is going, so thats pretty cool.

Yea today was pretty cool. School was about the same as it always is. Kurt was gonna come over but the person taking him couldn't today, and i obviously can't do it tommorow, i feel bad now tho cause he was so excited in meeting me. He said maybe monday. I goofed off other then that, and tried to plan this thing for tommorow with sammy. I really want him to go, i would be sad if he couldn't and would probalby complain the whole day. I guess i'm gonna be spending the night at Desi's. I love how my mom gives me a hard time (wont be drinking now will u?). I reply, y no mom, it's stuff like that that make desi think u hate her, oh btw, hey mom u know u messed up desi's and ds's relationship? He doesn't trust her anymore, and i dunno about me. My mom replied "oh it doesn't matter what he thinks". I don't think my mom realises he can make our lives hell if he wanted to. Urgh mom sometimes u drive me crazy. Also she is complaining about taking me so early in the morning. Well no one is forcing u to take me. W/e

So yea here i am waiting to know if we're picking up sammy tommorow, so i can call sammy and let him know, fun stuff. Adios

Eres mi mariposa de amor y dolor

Sadness

Crazy...

Long time no see

Hola mis amigos

Woo hoo

Woo...

Woo wee

Haha

Pretty Good Day (so far)

Ah, drawing to a closure

School sucks arse

Creepy...

Hola

Funnyness

School...papers...blah

URHG!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm still sick

*blinks*huh?

Bah goes the isaac...BAH!

Sick...damnit!

Woo hoo 7th level of hell!!

Happy...yet sad

Hola

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